It was the early spring of 1692. The days were longer, and the ground was greener. Salem Village was less lively than usual. Everyone seemed on edge. Bridget Bishop, Sarah Good, Elizabeth Howe, and Susannah Martin had all been executed for \u201cwitchcraft.\u201d Every time a woman was persecuted and killed, I made sure to remember her name. I know if it were me, I\u2019d want someone to remember mine. And honestly, I could be next. I\u2019d be the first person executed who was an actual witch. A demonic being from hell who possessed folks into committing treacherous sins. An evil and dangerous creature with horrific intentions. Their idea of us made me laugh.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Life was hard for women. Harder for black women and men. Mama was born into the house, second generation. I never met her mother, my grandma, since she died right before I was born. But my grandpa, he was my best friend. He was a kind man with gentle features and crooked teeth, who even after a long day of work or violent beating, would always try to make me smile. I fell in love with Caesar ’cause he reminded me of him. Grandpa was much darker than the rest of us, and therefore always forced to work in the fields. That endless labor is what got him in the end. I was with him right before he died, even held his hand. I remember that day clearly since it was the same day I met Caesar. Grandpa held my hand tightly and looked me in the eyes, clearly not wanting to show how afraid he was. But how could he not be? If the next life were to be as painful as this one, I\u2019d be afraid too. He motioned for me to lean forward, and when my right ear was practically touching his lips, he said: “Don\u2019t tell a soul.\u201d Seemed ominous for an old man’s last words, but at the time, I was so petrified and miserable that I never read too deep into them. My grandpa died with me by his side in a small stick house with dirt floors, the slave quarters. To this day, that still makes me angry. He deserved to die like a king.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
But as spring finally rolled around, over two years later, I started to think about what he had said, and it all made sense. Women were being executed for practicing witchcraft, white women. If I was discovered, they\u2019d burn me at the stake. Mama and my three sisters, Rebecca, Mary Ann, and Lucy, weren\u2019t like me. They were normal. And though the rest of my family was oblivious, Mama knew. I guess Grandma was like me. So as more and more women, innocent women, were being murdered, for power only I possessed, she grew more cautious, protective. Afraid I would accidentally do something that would get me in trouble, get me killed. I rarely used my powers, and when I did, they were almost always undetectable. Like warming up our house when cold air would get through the cracks of the walls or cleaning my sisters’ dresses when they got too dirty. No one ever really noticed except for Mama, not even Papa knew. But as the number of executions grew, Mama got more scared, so we now slept in the cold.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Caesar was murdered around the same time those poor women were killed. He was a Native-American boy, sold to the house right before my grandpa died. As a fifteen-year-old slave girl with a broken heart, he managed to make my days somewhat bearable. We were both lucky enough to be assigned work in the house. Sometimes even the same station like the garden or kitchen. Our masters were from old English money, so their house was ginormous. This allowed us to speak with one another without the fear of being heard. So as the years went by, we both realized our friendship wasn\u2019t platonic. And though it was illegal, it was worth the risk.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
He loved me, I\u2019m sure of it. It\u2019s crazy to me how a white woman’s words are always the truth. Always worth more than the truth, and evidence. How everyone believed her bogus story about him cornering her in an alley. Her screaming for help, and surprisingly no one heard her. On a Friday night, in a busy town, at 9 o\u2019clock. Mary Willis. Mary Willis, the victim. Before that night, I\u2019d seen her a few times when I was ordered to go into town. She never really stood out to me until that night. An average girl with a small frame. Always wearing a large and colorful dress with extravagant accessories, so everyone knew she had money. Porcelain skin and short brown hair. A polar opposite to me with my raggedy brown dress and white bonnet. Black, frizzy, \u201cunkempt\u201d hair and skin that made me disappear in the night. That following Saturday morning, a group of fifteen men from Hidden Lake broke into the slaves quarter where Caesar lived with pitchforks and rope. Fifteen grown men for one 17-year-old boy? They tore his house apart, setting fire to the few items inside of it, leaving his poor mother and sister scared to death and homeless. I saw them take Caesar through the small window of my house. My parents wouldn\u2019t let me go out cause they said it was dangerous, but I should have. I\u2019m stronger than all those men combined. With one summoning spell, they\u2019d all be dead. But I wasn\u2019t there for him, and he needed me. I\u2019m a coward. They dragged him through town, and with that rope, hung him up in the town square on a large oak tree in its center. A 17-year-old boy whose last glimpse of the world would be of hate, directed at him. The worst part isn\u2019t that he loved me, it\u2019s that he was innocent.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The morning after Caesar’s death, I struggled to get out of bed. I couldn\u2019t even move, I just felt paralyzed. No matter how hard I tried, my mind would always wander to memories of him and me together. I would momentarily smile when this would happen, then I\u2019d remember that he was gone. After that, all I could think about was revenge. Hatred wasn\u2019t a feeling I\u2019d grown accustomed to. Though plenty of people hated me, I\u2019d always decided hating them back wouldn\u2019t change anything. And hating people just took too much work. But Mary Willis, I hated that girl with every fiber in my body. Not only had she stolen the love of my life, but with no good reason. And why him of all people? The kindest soul in the entire town, maybe the entire world. Though I was still young, my powers were strong. Being a witch wasn\u2019t something I publicized for obvious reasons, but I had never been ashamed. I had been granted a gift, and I was going to use it to kill Mary Willis.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
On Wednesday, a group was permitted to bring Caesar home. It took a while since those evil men from Hidden Lake wouldn\u2019t allow it. They wanted to make an example of him. Though I tried to avoid it, I saw Caesar once when I was forced to go into town on Monday. I was crossing the cobblestone street, walking towards the tailor’s shop when I saw him. Like a fallen angel, he hung there. Quietly, almost peaceful. Well, as peaceful as one can be with a broken neck. I\u2019d quickly turned around, afraid that if I stared at him any longer my eyes would light on fire. Or even worse, I would cry. Right then and there, in front of everyone. I wanted to scream, but I knew if I had, someone would tell my Master, and there\u2019d be hell to pay. So I fixed my posture and looked forward as if nothing had happened. As I finished crossing the street, I saw a man, one of the men who I had seen taken Caesar. He stared straight at me, and it was clear he had seen my reaction. The crooked smile on his face and piercing eyes showed that he was pleased, almost proud of himself. They loved to see me scared.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The next day, while I was polishing the kitchen floor, my Master’s wife, Lady Agnes, walked over to me. She was a short, plump woman with long red hair that was turning grey and white near the roots. In my 17 years of living here, I had only ever caught her wearing some elegant dress made of either velvet, satin, or silk. Her dresses were always highly decorated with fancy buttons and lace, something you\u2019d expect from a queen. Lady Agnes always carried around the same plain white silk handkerchief. I\u2019ve never been sure, but I\u2019d guess it was a gift from her late son, Robert, who had been killed in a hunting accident a few years back. She was the only person in the house who remembered my name. A kind woman, well as kind as one could be as a slave owner. \u201cRuth, come over here darling.\u201d She ushered me towards the corner of the kitchen where she stood, handkerchief clenched in her left hand. \u201cGo get yourself a group of other girls,” she continued. “I need y’all to go clean the house of a friend of mine. I owe her a favor, you see. \u201d I nodded obediently and awaited any further orders. \u201cI\u2019ll go fetch Richard to lead you to the house. You\u2019re dismissed.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
For the job, I chose my eldest sister, Mary Ann, and five other girls who all lived in the same slave quarters. I found them all together in the garden. Richard was already there, perfect. Richard was Lady Agnes\u2019s youngest son. He was a sinister boy, one who knew he had power and exploited it against his slaves. Against his female slaves. Though his parents never noticed, it was evident to the other slaves working for the house. The way he would always get closer than necessary and volunteer to \u201chelp out\u201d the women and girls. He was the only person I had ever been afraid of. Not because he was a creep but because if he ever tried to touch my sisters or me, I wouldn\u2019t be able to stop myself. He\u2019d be dead in an instant, and then we\u2019d all be killed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
He guided us down a long path through the woods near the back of the house. I\u2019m forced to spend most of my days in the house, only ever going out when I have to run an errand in town or water the plants in the garden. Though this is a blessing in the winter, during the warmer months, I often catch myself looking through the large windows of Master’s house, daydreaming. So though it was brief, it was kind of nice to be outside, minus the creep. The path was windy and long, difficult to travel in the scorching sun of July. The ground was dusty and rocky, so bad that Mary Ann fell. Near the end, there were lush green trees that blocked out the sun, distracting me from the heat. And that\u2019s when I saw it. Richard walked next to Harriet, another girl who worked for the house, with his hand a little too far down her back. Everyone else had noticed and looked the other way, while she walked next to him, looking terrified, too afraid to speak. Before I could even stop myself, he was on the ground, looking around bewildered and surprised. I knew that if I\u2019d killed him, it would be too obvious, and we\u2019d all be to blame. But if he were to accidentally trip over a rock and land so hard that he broke his nose, well. He quickly got up and looked around at each of us threateningly, as if we made him trip. I don\u2019t think he even realized the blood dripping from his nose until a small puddle had formed at the base of his feet. The rest of the walk there was silent. For once, Richard kept his distance.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A few minutes later, we finally reached the house. It was larger than the Master’s and completely white, with a luscious garden in the front yard that likely extended to the back. Cleaning this house with only seven of us was gonna be a challenge. Richard walked up to the front door and knocked lightly on its white wood with his only available hand. When someone finally opened the door, he looked at them, embarrassed. And I looked at them, furious. There she was, Mary Willis, standing there holding the door. She was wearing a large green dress that did nothing for her complexion and had her hair in a bun that showed off her long giraffe neck. Images of Caesar appeared in my mind. Caesar and I talking in the kitchen, Caesar holding my hand in the garden, Caesar hanging on a tree. She must have noticed the disdain in my eyes because she walked straight up to me, completely ignoring Richard at the door. “Is there a problem?\u201d she asked. \u201cPeople who look at me that way often wind up dead.\u201d What did she say? I swiftly plastered a smile on my face and met her gaze. “Of course not, Miss. I apologize if I disrespected you.\u201d There was a long silence as everyone watched to see what she would do next. Mary looked me up and down, seemingly unimpressed, then motioned us all to follow her inside.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The interior was gorgeous, absolutely breathtaking. Unfortunately, I barely even noticed. I was seething inside. She killed him, she murdered Caesar. And afterward, she got to come home to this extravagant house and be served by her servants and slaves. We all followed her to the grand staircase in the center of the house. I noticed that Richard wasn\u2019t there with us. Probably went off to see if anyone could fix his nose. I momentarily grinned at the thought. \u201cMom and Dad want every room in the house cleaned to exceptional standards,” she began. “The floors must be polished, the windows so clear I can see my reflection at night. We will accept nothing less. And you must be done by nightfall, we have important company tonight. \u201c With that, she promptly left the room, likely too disgusted to be in our presence any longer.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Everyone went to a separate room, hoping we would finish sooner if we divided the area. I decided to go to the kitchen, where it was the most open and welcoming. Hopefully, there, I\u2019d be able to hear something that would help me bring this girl down. Most of the interior was wood, a deep brown that contrasted nicely with the bright exterior. Though the house was larger, the kitchen was much smaller than Master\u2019s, giving me hope that we may be able to finish cleaning this house after all. Doing jobs like this could be so tedious since, with one stroke of my finger, I could clean the entire house. Sometimes I imagined what my life would be like if I could use my powers freely without fear of persecution or death. Then, I imagine what it would be like if I could live my life freely. What would I do? Would I help people or exploit my power against others, the way the Masters do now? I\u2019ll never understand what makes them so much better than us.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A few hours passed, and I was finally finishing up in the kitchen when a group of men walked in. They were following Mary and a woman that was likely her mother towards the large dining table, parallel to the kitchen. Mary saw me and briefly stopped, surprised that I was still there. I\u2019m guessing these men were important, so my presence wasn’t ideal. She walked over to me gracefully, careful not to cause a scene, while her mother gestured for the men to sit at the table. \u201cDo you see those platters on the table?\u201d she barked. \u201cGood, now take them to the dining table and serve those men as your life depends on it. Don\u2019t look them in the eyes, don\u2019t speak unless called upon, and above all, be quick.\u201d With that, Mary curtsied at the men to show that she was leaving and walked out of the room.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I followed Mary\u2019s instructions and quickly served the group. By listening to their conversation, it was clear that these men were important. One wrong move and I really could wind up dead. I was placing a platter of something that looked like ham when one of them finally mentioned something that spiked my interest. “Thomas, they\u2019re everywhere. They blend into the crowd, but honestly, one could be living in our own homes and we wouldn\u2019t know.\u201d The person speaking was a middle-aged man with dark brown hair and a greying beard. He looked anxious. \u201cJohn, it\u2019s fine, you need to relax. Not a single one has hurt anyone, we catch them right on time,\u201d the man whom I\u2019m guessing was Thomas replied. \u201cAnd hell, if I found out one of my daughters was one, I\u2019d kick the barrel myself.\u201d Though they were only speaking with one another, all the other conversations dwindled, likely captivated by its topic. A short, plumped man with a monocle chimed in. \u201c It brings me no greater pain to imagine how many of those creatures live among us. But as Thomas said, we can\u2019t live in fear. God is watching us, he hears our prayers. Eventually, this nightmare will end.” The man’s short speech seemed to put everyone else at ease and they quickly switched the conversation. But if what they had said was true, I now had a plan that might work.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I looked around and saw Mary\u2019s mother sitting in the far corner of the living room, sewing what was likely one of her husband’s suits. I walked over to her graciously, making sure to be as discreet as possible. \u201cExcuse me, ma\u2019am, I\u2019m sorry to disturb you. I was wondering where I could find a bathroom.\u201d She barely acknowledged me. She didn\u2019t even look up. Had she even heard me? “We have bathrooms outside near the slave quarters for people like you. You best be quick though, you are on the job,\u201c she replied. I could see where Mary got the attitude. I had finished serving all the men, so while they were distracted, I quickly ducked out to the backyard where supposedly the bathroom would be. As I walked across the grass towards the slave quarters, I noticed I had been right about my previous predictions on the garden. It was even more impressive in the backyard than it had been in the front yard, harvesting all types of plants and flowers. Caesar would have loved this. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
The bathroom was filthy, much worse than the one in the slave quarters at Master’s estate. It smelt and looked as if it hadn\u2019t been clean in years. There was likely more fungus growing in that bathroom than there were plants in the garden. I sat down on the small toilet in the corner and attempted to calm myself down. If I went through with this plan and it worked, she would no doubt be killed. A possession spell, that’s all it would take. I would simply take control of her body, and make her do things, act out in a way that would prove their speculations true. Make them believe that the girl who just hours ago had been such a fantastic host, was a witch. It was too perfect a plan to pass up. She\u2019d be publicly humiliated, turned on by the people she once considered family and friends. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. A second later, I was standing in the dining room.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mary must have been talking with one of the men at the table because when I opened my eyes, a man was staring back at me, he was smiling. I guess it must have worked then ’cause there\u2019s no way you\u2019d ever catch a white man smiling at a slave girl the way he was. Mary must be important to him. “Miss. Willis, you are turning out to be a beautiful woman. Have you thought about a husband yet? I know there are plenty of fine gentlemen just waiting for the opportunity.\u201d He was hitting on her. A man that had to be twice her age, likely older than Papa. It was repulsive. I looked down at my hands. Perfectly polished and manicured, sitting lightly on my bright green dress. I met his gaze and gave him a shy smile. “Aww, stop, you\u2019re gonna make me blush,\u201c I replied. He seemed pleased with himself. If this didn\u2019t work, the least I could do was get Mary engaged to this creep. He continued to speak, talking about how gorgeous she was and how successful his new business was going, real subtle.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I pretend to be listening, but in actuality, all I could pay attention to was the other conversations. I needed an opening. A few minutes later, it finally came. \u201cHenry, you\u2019ve seen a witch in action before. What did it do?\u201d It was the same man from before. I think his name was John. \u201cWell, John, it may have been the most appalling scene I\u2019ve ever had the misfortune of setting my eyes on. All I\u2019ll say is for the weeks that followed, I went to church every day.\u201d This was it, the chance to make my move. \u201cWhy do y’all hate witches so much? They ain\u2019t ever hurt nobody.\u201d I completely interrupted their conversations. It was clear that as a woman, my actions were looked down upon. And the fact that I was defending witches, well. Everyone’s conversation stopped, and they all looked at me, disgusted. So I continued. \u201cHow can one be born a sinner? How can you say they\u2019re so bad when they\u2019ve never actually violated anyone. If witches are sinners, some of y\u2019all must be Satan with the way you treat your slaves. It\u2019s completely\u2026\u201d Before I could finish, a man grabbed my arm violently and yanked me to the ground. He looked embarrassed, but above all furious. I\u2019d guess he was Mary\u2019s father by his brown hair and similar features. \u201cYoung lady, get a hold of yourself. What are you saying?\u201d With each word, his hold on my arm grew tighter. It was starting to hurt. So I broke his hand. He yelled in pain, clearly terrified by what had just happened. Everyone at the table saw it too. The way his fingers bent in all directions without anything forcing them. The fact that the broken hand was also the one that had been gripping my arms. And that’s all it took. Everyone from the table stood up and encircled me, all careful not to get too close. The man from before with the monocle spoke up. He was the leader of the group. \u201cMary Willis, you are hereby condemned for treason against our town. Due to the circumstances, a trial is not necessary. You will be punished accordingly for your crimes. So, as a witch, Mary Willis, you are sentenced to death.\u201d The circle of men around me slowly got smaller, they were getting closer. Mary\u2019s mother must have heard from the corner because she let out a dramatic gasp and ran to her husband’s side. It was as if as soon as Mary had been \u201cdiscovered\u201d as a witch, all blood tied between them vanished. Her parents just looked ashamed. That was my cue to leave. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, right as they grabbed my arms and legs.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
When I finally opened my eyes, I was back in that dingy bathroom. It was dark, so I couldn\u2019t see myself. I touched my hair, just to make sure I was back. Dry and coily, perfect. I quickly ran to the door, afraid that if I didn\u2019t get back soon, the others would notice. But as I ran back towards the house, that’s when I heard it. The yelling, the pleading, the screams. The closer I got, the louder it became, practically engulfing my mind. It was Mary, no doubt about it. I opened the backdoor and walked in just in time to see her forced outside the front door. She looked petrified. They had ripped her dress, so she was shivering in her undergarments, and tied her hands and legs, likely as a precaution to keep her \u201cpowers” in check. She looked around at all the men innocently, clearly confused about what was going on. \u201cFather, Father, make them stop! I’m innocent, Father. You know me, let me go!\u201d In response, her father just hung his head, too embarrassed to look at her any longer. Now he was a coward. \u201cMother, stop this please, I beg of you! Please, I’m innocent, let me go.\u201d She continued to scream, pleading for any compassion from anyone. She was met with frightful stares. Tears began to spring up from her eyes, and she started to move around, a hopeless attempt to set herself free. Together, the men yanked her through the door, into the summer night.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I\u2019d only ever used this spell once. It made me completely undetectable to the human eye. And though it was risky, I knew tonight was the time to try it. I made this happen, so there\u2019s no way I\u2019m not gonna see it through. While everyone was still distracted by the outburst, I ran back to the backyard, trying to find an area where I couldn\u2019t be seen. I settled under a large willow tree with leaves long enough to conceal me from the others. Was this wrong? In my head, I knew that Mary deserved it, but my consciousness couldn\u2019t seem to get on board. She would be killed. A teenage girl with her whole life ahead of her would be killed for something she didn\u2019t do. Sounded kind of familiar. I laughed out loud at the thought. It was like a Domino effect. A life for a life and so on. Did I want to play into something so vile, so evil? But what about Caesar? If I let her live, what does that mean? That if you have power, you can do whatever you want without consequences? The idea of just letting her off was repulsive. I hated that girl, and unfortunately for her, that feeling couldn\u2019t just simply go away. I was gonna watch her die. I quickly cast the invisibility spell then ran from the tree. I\u2019d need to catch up, or else I\u2019d miss the show.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
A took me a few minutes but eventually, I caught up to the group holding Mary. A lot more people had joined, and it now looked like a full-fledged riot with Mary as their target. It was obvious that they had been dragging her on the ground due to the dirt and rubble in her hair. Mary looked exhausted. Fortunately for me, the spell had worked. I could walk right in front of someone, and they wouldn\u2019t be able to see or detect me, perfect! I walked with the crowd and followed them as we went past the town square, past where Caesar was killed. I\u2019d never been there, but I knew there was a special place they took witches to be killed, the infamous Gallows Hill. It took another hour for us to finally arrive. As we walked through the streets, the crowd just continued to grow. It was as if everyone in town was there, even children. The town square was located at the edge of Salem, so once we passed it, there was a straightforward path through the woods. The sun was starting to set, and the sky was a bright blood orange. The woods were silent. The only sound that could be heard were our footsteps on the ground, breaking old sticks and leaves. Mary was now silent, it seems she had accepted her fate, that was quick. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Eventually, we came to a large clearing with a large bendy tree in its center. When they arrived at the base of the tree, the men finally put her down. She didn\u2019t even attempt to run. One man in the crowd stepped forward, holding a large rope and wooden barrel. He placed the barrel under the foot of the tree while some other men from the original group put the rope around a low branch. The crowd spread out, forming a circle around Mary. I wondered why everyone was so eager to watch. Wasn\u2019t she one of them? A woman from the crowd stepped forward and grabbed Mary\u2019s hand, guiding her towards the barrel. She was the only person I\u2019d seen who looked upset about this, pity in her old eyes. She helped Mary step onto the barrel and squeezed her hand before letting go. The rope was then lowered, close enough for Mary to grab, a loop for her head already formed. She grabbed the rope and looked around at the crowd, likely searching for some remorse or empathy. At one point I thought I may have seen her look at me, but that was impossible. Now she looked scared, petrified. I wonder if this is how Caesar felt right before they hung him up. I\u2019d been with him for long enough to know he was a fighter. But to be aware that your death was coming so soon. When just days ago you had been living your everyday life, completely oblivious. She put him through that, and I\u2019ll never know why. Mary took the rope and placed it around her neck, then she closed her eyes. A final tear rolled down her cheek, falling to the ground as she let out a defeated sigh. I watched them kick the barrel.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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